Worthy

I don’t think my boys read my blog and I think Hubs does from time to time. But I just need to put this all out into the void of the internet in the hope it helps ease my mind and heart.

So, a lot of things changed in my household over the summer. Reece was gone more than normal with baseball and Riley took a job for the entire summer at the camp where our church youth attends for one week each summer. Mind you this camp is in another state. But the big change was they both ended up with girlfriends this summer. Neither one had ever dated seriously, and I was excited they both found someone who they wanted to spend time with. Hubs and I have met both girls and we really like them. Reece and his girlfriend are still going strong at almost four months but recently Riley and his girlfriend, MW, broke up.

And here is where it gets tricky, at least for me, as this entire situation has woven itself into my life and will not let go. God has shown up in MW’s life in a real and tangible way. Her story is not mine to tell but our stories do have a small similarity, and it is one that pulls at my heart not only has a mom but as a girl. She has such a deep faith and personal relationship with the Lord. The kind of relationship I have prayed for over the years for any woman that would come into my children’s lives.

This week I have never wanted to run to another state and wrap my arms around someone so fast as I have this week. I remember the pain of a broken heart as a teenager and a young twenty something girl. It hurts me to know she is experiencing this and there is nothing I can do to fix it. As moms we just want to fix it when our children are hurting.

I have reached out to her and let her know that I am praying for her. I have asked God for specific details for her that I hope he hears and provides. I have prayed for Riley and her so many times this past week that I am certain God is tired of hearing their names fall from my lips. But I also know that in times of trails or struggle the Lord draws you closer to him and this time is no different. I can feel him working not only in their lives but mine as well.

Riley is my son and while I am being supportive of him, I also want to be supportive of MW. One thing that has played out in my mind over and over is that maybe my son is not worthy of her. Maybe God put it on his heart to break up with her so she can find and move forward to the one that he has created for her. The one that will cherish her, love her, provide for her, guide her, and simply just be her person. The one that HE has created just for her and for him. As painful as it is for her and for my mama heart to acknowledge, maybe this is why.

This is all new territory to Hubs and me as well. We have gotten attached to MW in such a short amount of time it will be hard for us to let her go. I know affairs of the heart get easier as time moves on, but this break up has affected me too. I only wanted to be one more person for her to do life with. To do all the things that parents do for their children. I hope that in the years to come I can still be some small part of her life, even if all I do is pray for her.

I am trusting God and his plan and his timing in this situation. I know God’s timing is always perfect. I have witnessed it firsthand. I believe with everything in me that He has someone who is completely and utterly worthy of her. And when she meets that someone, I hope they know how wonderful she truly is and how worthy they are of her.  

It's To Hot For Birthday Candles

Well here we are, almost to the middle of August. Apparently Texas is experiencing a heat wave. This is nothing new as it is always hot in Texas during the month of August. 

However, right now it feels as if Texas is standing on the face of the sun for an extended period of time. Today it is 103 with a heat index of 112. See standing on the face of the sun. 

I also did not get on here to talk about the heat what I did get on here to talk about is Hubs. He had a birthday on Monday. 

We didn't get to celebrate that night so we celebrated on Tuesday. I made one of his favorite desserts, Eclair cake. However there will be no candles, because of the dry weather conditions and the fire hazard said candles might cause.

Happy Birthday Hubs, I love you!

 

 

Maybe I'll Start Blogging Again

I started this blog back in April 2008 as a creative outlet and a way to document my boys growing up. 

It was a perfect time to get into blogging. The blog world was just exploding and there were communities every where for just about anything that interested you. I met people that I still keep in touch with today. 

It was a wonderful outlet, until it wasn't. Over the years it has felt like the blog community has fallen of the map. It did not help that in January 2012 I decided to complete my bachelors degree. I still had household to run and I needed keep everyone fed so something had to give. And so blogging became nonexistent. I pretty much stopped posting here unless it was a major milestone and I wanted to remember every detail. 

Well here I am fifteen years later. The boys have now both graduated from high school. One of them has graduated from college and is almost finished with his masters degree. The other one upon graduation from high school took a job in Oklahoma for the summer and won't return to Texas until mid August which just happens to be right before he starts college.  

I also completed my bachelors degree and life just seemed to move right along. 

But upon graduating I started to think about this blog here and all that it meant me over the years. I have numerous times looked back at posts and the pictures that were included. Sometimes I smiled and sometimes I laughed. I cried at some and even shuddered at a few too. But all in all, the memories made me thankful I had a spot to write them down.

It also got me thinking about how I enjoyed writing about the adventure of our life. I realized I missed it to some extent.  The boys are much older and no longer require my constant attention. The school books, discussion boards, and exams also no longer need my focus. Hubs and I have entered into the new phase of what I call sort of empty nesting. The boys are still around but they also have their own lives.

So who knows, maybe I'll start writing here again.  

So I Did A Thing

So I did a thing on May 12. Well actually I did a thing on March 7 but the ceremony was May 12. 

I graduated from college. Lamar University Class of 2023!

It's been something that I have been pursuing for a while. I have always thought about going back to college to finish my bachelor’s degree. I started college like the rest of my friends when I graduated high school, but life happened, and I stopped going for one reason or another. 

In December 2011 when my husband graduated with his master’s degree, I made the decision to go back to school. So, January 2012 I started the pursuit to finish my college degree. One of the perks of working where I do is that they pay for employees to take classes, but they limit how many they pay for. When I started it was only two classes a year, one in each long semester. I had a grant for a while which allowed me to take three classes a semester but that was only for a short time so back to one class a semester when the grant ended. 

I was determined to finish and only stopped for one semester in 2017 when Hurricane Harvey hit, and I had way too much on my plate to even think about school. But it was during that time, my place of employment changed their policy for employees to take classes, it went from 2 a year to 5 a year, two in the fall and spring and one in the summer. It was that change that made me even more determined to finish this degree. 

The road hasn’t always been easy. There were many late nights studying and writing papers. Missed weekends hanging out with friends, taking trips or summer vacations. Classes that frustrated me and classes that challenged me. Classes that I needed tutoring help from my husband just to get through it and classes that I just seemed to breeze through. 

Fast forward to current day, eleven years later and I finally graduated. It all seems so surreal to me. This day always seemed so far away, and yet here I am.

I graduated on March 7, 2023 with a bachelor’s degree in Applied Arts and Sciences, and a minor in Communications. I also graduated with Summa cum laude Latin honors. I did it all while working full time, raising a family, keeping up a household, and watching my boys participate in whatever sports they were involved in. 

This journey taught me to believe in myself and to never give up, no matter what life throws at you. It also reminded me that I like to learn. I'm so proud of myself for not giving up! 

 

I did it!

 

My sweet friend, who is a professor on campus was waiting to give me a big hug.
 

Reece had baseball and could not come to actual ceremony but it didn't stop me from going to the field to get a family picture.

My four best friends and my cousin. Sonya, Wendi, Beth, Misty. Lisa, my cousin wearing the solid green dress flew in from New York just to watch me walk across the stage.

All Things Riley

It has been a while. I have been so busy this year and it really has flown by. Riley, as you have known him as R2 since I started this blog has had a big year. 

So much has been happening that centers all around him.  He started his senior year of high school in August 2022. He turned 18 in January 2023. Riley had a great Varsity golf season and received the THSCA Academic All State award. We went on his senior trip in April to Branson, Missouri so he could play golf at Payne's Valley and Top of the Rock golf courses. His Rocket Engineering class built and launched their rocket successfully, this was a huge deal. This upcoming weekend is prom and he graduates next weekend. Oh and he took a job for the summer in Oklahoma. He leaves the day after graduation and does not come back until August. 

My mama heart can not take much more. 

 But here are a few pictures of how his year has gone. 

 

 

 

Riley, your dad and I are so proud of all that you have accomplished during your senior year of high school. We have loved having a front row seat to your life. We are excited about what the future holds for you. You have been our greatest adventure. We love you!